I got tagged by a fuckface half a year ago so I "got to" write 20 things about myself.. (but never bothered so..)
This is for you, "~PyritePeanut" >.<

1; I'm Glenn >.<
2; I'm very spontanious when it suites me.
3; I like to improvise.
4; I like to amuse myself.
5; I go to school to increase the chance to amuse myself.
6; I act on my own ethics.
7; People say I'm very creative..
8; I love bitching about things.
9; My mind can be very emo. >.<
10; I love things from MediEvil-times.
11; Every weapon I own, I can handle.
12; I'm kinda anti-humanist.. Not like, Kill kill and kill somemore..
More like, when a little kid falls, brakes both his paws and cries, I'll be like..;"Dude.. LEARN HOW TO FRIGGIN WALK YOU PEACE'A SH*T."
14; My music chose varies from Mozart to Rammstein. I don't do gerne. A good song's a good song.
15; I divide people into 3 main classes.; Idiots> Retards> Others
Idiots and retards are people I;
a; Don't like.
b; Don't know.
d; Don't like. >.<

The others are people I kinda like or people who just never bitched against me.
16; Don't bitch about the way I look, cause I do jack-sh*t about it. Besides, looks aint everything,, You'll find out when ya know me.
17; I H A T E people who act like they're more than others.
Those are the people that actually are the ones less than the rest, they just don't realize it.
18; I H A T E the fakeness of humanity. People acting, clothing, talking like others just to get accepted by the rest of the herd. If you want to be someone, than atleast be yourself.
19; I appear to have a talent to cheer most people up who are in a bad mood. Or so some say..
20; I have my own way of thinking, sometimes somethings might seem a little fucked up or over-thought for others, but think of it this way...; Am I the one who's thinking too deeply, or are the others just thinking to little..?


Thats twenty, and Ima tag everyone who reads this.

1; I got one of 'm high pressure air brushes last week.
So now I'm gonna use that instead of normal paint cans.

2; I decided that my dad's wife is going to pay for all the shit she has done.
I finally know where she lives.. In my dad's house. She already got the key, but monday, my family can enter the house to get stuff, or atleast get the stuff that's left in there. Knowing her, she's busy moving all of his stuff to her parents place or somewhere. Cause ya see..? She's a bloody selfish, border-lined succubus. Anyway, she's gonna pay. ^.^
Help is always welcome.

3; I never knew how many people were actually willing to help me with just about everything..
I mean, there's this teacher which I'm gonna visit Saturday, who hardly knows me, excapt from the stories of his girlfriend, whom happens to be my economic-teacher. He wants to help me with all of his connections and all, to give me a diploma of this school. SWEET... another year of laying back, right?

4; Since school doesn't really care wether or not I'm going to school for the next few weeks, I decided to go to school, but only for the classes that I want to be in. (no, we can't choose our own studies)
I'm even gonna switch some classes. E.g.: Since my teacher of Physics does about the same effort to teach his crap, as I follow his words.. I decided to cut that crap for now, and re-join with my best mates in their art-class.
Which happens to be 1 grade higher than mine, but that's cause I had to redo this year. Anyway, pure dumb luck, cause they happen to have that lesson, excactly when I have Physics. EXCELLENT.

5; Appearently I have an influonce on that art-teacher of the class above.
If you've seen the devs. "Handy" or "M.W.M.", you'll know what I'm talking about..
When I joined his class thursday, they were doing this stupid thing of making "3-D" things (metalwire with layers of ¿concrete? on it) look like they were "escaping" a 2-d realm. E.g.; A guy walks out of a painting, but he's half out.
The teacher told me that he thought of the subject cause of "Handy".
Ghehheh.. Too bad that I didn't have copyright on it. >.<



Anyway,, That's about the main for this week. ^.^

And so he didn't..


He fooled everyone for the past 2 months..
Even me.


I predicted this would happen about 2 to 3 years ago.
But the past few weeks, I lost my thought about it.
I thought he was off the track of doing so..

And I was wrong...



He hanged himself 2 days ago. Tuesday, the 14th of 2006.
My dad..


He probly couldn't take "it" anymore..
But what "it" is..

There are hell a lot of options..
For e.g.:

He might've thought that he was a burden to others.. (he was but everyone is).

Or his finances..
Or most likely.. His wife called 'm or something, and gave 'm the final fucking push.



Doesn't really matter.
All I know is that the bitch is gonna pay for fucking up the last 5 years of his life.




I'm not saying that I'm going to be the one to make her pay, but I'm not saying I'm not going to be that person.
Either ways, I'm not the only one who could kill 'r.
There are about 90 other fucking people who would do it instead.



But to cut that crap..

I heard it yesterday eve.
My (ex)father's brother found 'm, hanging on the stairs..

Now he got a trauma.

Anyway,, after they found 'm they called my mom, and told 'r they were on their way to my home.

I knew there was something fucked up, cause they would never come unless there was something bad.

A few minutes later, they were here. And as soon as the door opened, dear uncle was crying "he is dead..".

Strangely enough, I wasn't shocked.. Nor sad.
So I've come to the conclusion, that there really is something wrong with me.
Cause this is the third time in a row..


Anyway,, Of all the close people, I'm the one who's taking it best.

So I'm the one who everyone is worried about.



So now, I'm doing stuff for the funeral, like informing people about him., arranging the funeral and the card's thing.


Is it a burden? No.
Is it easy..? Kinda.





Anyway,, Things really are going to change for me now, cause my dad was a teacher at my school and everybody knew that he was my dad.

Above that, I know the fights between me and my mom will increase like Hell... But even worse, I've lost my last place to flee too and from.



Yes, also to flee from.
Months ago, I hated him. In fact, I've hated him for about as long as I can remember..
But lately, I realized I hated him and loved him as well.
My bro and I used to go to him each second weekend.
Not out of free will oufcourse, but still, I went each second weekend...

Since I didn't want to be there, I often asked 'm to take me back to my own home. He did most of the times..
But the past 3 weeks, I went to his place out of own free will.
Just cause he had a new pc and good internet-connection..
The pc was practically mine. I know he bought it for me, with the hope I would come over more.
Anyway..
I went over to his place more often, and he told me he liked it a lot..

I liked it too, cause I had a new comp to destroy.
So it was a win-win situation.
(i'll continue this later)

It's just to be sure its read so..


I'm putting up a crew here to do the lamest practical jokes..
Things like tieing shoe-laces together and such..

But here's the problem,, (excapt for the making the crew part..)

I don't have that many ideas..
So please send some suggestions...

If its a good one, we'll do it, tape it and put it up on dev.


Thanks
G.B.

I already know how I'm gonna think about this the next time I'm gonna see it but still..



About 4 months ago everything was just perfect..
Well.. Perfect..
Count all the tiny shit out and it'd be acceptable..

But lately..
I've been getting back to the status of how my mind was about 2 years ago..
Chaotic, depressed and suicudal.

I guess with all the shit happening past few months my.. "Dark-side" just got back..

Lemme explain this "Dark-side";;
There's a part in every human-being that has all the natural instincts..
The instincts like.. To mate, to conquer and to kill.

You'd say..;" You're 16, you're a guy.. There're the hormones and such.."

Well.. That's bullshit.
I may be 16 and all but I'm not the type go walk,
No.. RUN after every single "nice" hole.
So hormones? Up yours!!

Anyway,, I've never had those.. "Feelings.."
But then.. My mom was bitching, my bro was punching, my dad was screwing some whore whose 15 years younger than him and got pregnant, then there's school and all..
All together,, It comes down to me almost creating a masacre.

Then.. I found a way to surpress all of it.
God knows how.. But God's a sadastical bitch, so he won't tell me.

I managed to keap it together untill christmass (2005).
Somehow my internet got cut-off, I noticed my school was going down, etc. etc...

The first eve of the "happy" new-year one of my closest friggin' friends died..
No more McDonalds anymore.. (used to go with him so...)

Then 2 days after that,, I met a girl in the mall..
She recognized me after not seeing me for about 4 years..
I totally noticed that she digged me, so the next day she came to my house to "chill", a.k.a. hang-out.
And the day after that.. The day after that, I went to hers..
Her parents were fighting.. Great....

About 3 days after that, she told me she didn't want to get a relation with me cause she didn't want to "play" me. For all the people who don't understand it,, That means she didn't want to cheat on me, other words, she's saying she's a whore like the rest of the dutch population.. But what the heck.


2 weeks later.. My mom forced me to rebuild my room,, I did, and I seriously almost sliced her with the long-sword.

I didn't do a single thing right according to her.
Everything I said was rebounced by saying I need to shut up cause I have a big mouth..
Well bitch.. I may have a big mouth, but you don't hear me saying about your big ass, now do ya?
Anyway..
Point is,, She almost made me snap (again..).

2 weeks later. Ano; Now.
Room's almost done, I messed up my vacation by doing the room and pretty much nothing else. Don't take it the wrong way.. With nothing else, I don't mean I spend 24/7 on my room.. No.. It's more like it actually says.. I did NOTHING -else.

So now,, 4 months later, still no internet excapt for at my dad's, I'm sick of my life in Niggerland..

I can't remember a single good thing that happened in my life in the time that I've been in this region.

Nothing.. Nothing excapt for 1 thing..
That 1 thing happens to be a change of things combined but that's life..
A series of happenings, like a movie-tape...
Millions and millions of tiny pictures which just follow each other non-stop, forming a single story.

Anyway, that 1, GOOD chain of events..
Is that I got internet, I then got a free-will and personality, then found a lame site where I met someone who I thank for getting my interest in anime(-which then made me start drawing at own-will), who I thank for giving me the email of someone, who was a bitch as first but later on that person has became the only person whom I actually trust with all my secrets (though she knows known cause she never asked >.< ["hint hint"]) and the only one for whom I've made a promise I intend to keep.
She's probly know 't already but hell..

All the others things, including my trip to england and such,, All crap..
I hate holidays, specially now cause there's someone in my head I only saw about 5 seconds 2 years ago, on a campsite, and all of the sudden remember I saw her back then and that I still kinda am inlove with her.. I HATE LOVE..

I hate mankind.. Always acting like mankind is superior to all..
Always "Investigating,, Improving,, Fighting for the sake of peace.."
Not caring a thing about anything excapt themselves.

I mean,, If you really are fighting for "peace"..
I'd say, drop some friggin nukes in the Atlantic to poison all the water, and later nature re-do the "great" evolution.

I mean,, Think about it.. People are saying ants are pests cause they breed like hell..
So?? People breed twice the speed.
Atleast ants work TOGETHER, and take what they need.

Humans on the other,,;
If you could get a brand-new Sony 5000 GX11 or whatever by just killing the guy next door..
I just know half of you would..


Trust me.. I'm not a guy whose for war and violence and all..
But seriously..

If everyone would just get a gun.. Split up in 2, and shoot the person on the other side of you, Earth would be a much lovelier place.

"OMG.. THAT'D KILL LIKE.. MILLIONS,,?!"

Yeah.. So?!

It IS acceptable to kill entire species of "animals"..
But you can't kill a single person just cause he/she's is another "human-being"?!

RedBull-shit..

Humans aren't superior to anything, and have stopped with killing for survival a long, long, longggg time ago..
The only reason we'll kill anything now, is either way to get some lame "bling bling"crap or to feel better than something else.








You may say that I'm depressed..
Or a friggin nazi or something..

Well.. If being depressed means thinking in a different way than the way the herd does..
Then yes,, I am depressed.

And a nazi?

No, no no noooo....

Nazi's prefer races..

I in the other hand, do not.







But all of this shit,, All the shit I've been typing for the last 50 minutes..
It'll all be gone in 2 years..


Ya know why?
No..?

Good, cause I don't plan on telling.